AMKent books

The Russian Doll

A vessel constructed, an ark made from the internal bleeding. Infinity into the finite, a raft to ascend limitations. Creation a co-ownership? What brought me to this? I thought about evidence for a creator that has intention. Then I thought about what evidence is, essentially boiling it down to a pattern of a kind. A pattern requires a binary, a creator and a created. Essentially a semiotic argument, that meaning only exists in relation. Which quietly undermines any claim to an absolute creator, because a creator defined against creation is already in a relationship, already conditional. If the universe doesn’t care, why does it consistently create conditions in which the only way it can be sustained is by care? Then, I thought about conditions, everything requires a condition to function, which contradicts the idea behind a singularity like the big bang, unless nothingness some how reversed itself. I tried to move past my linear thought patterns, treat linearity as a Cartesian demon. In that sense, a singularity as a start would be what we would want due to our need for order, but creation is more likely a co-partnership. It sounds paradoxical, because paradoxical conditions are unavoidable. Past our three dimensional coping mechanisms, continuity, progression, linearity, constants and variables, paradoxes are truly unavoidable. We are the creator of 2D, like a shadow, then we’d be the shadow cast from the human of 4D, holographic. All the information contained in a volume of space can be encoded on its boundary surface. This is the holographic principle, Berkenstein and Hawkins, then further developed by Susskind. How many dimensions does it extend, everything becomes abstract but it would all be funneling down from creator to creation and the creation would always be a simpler form. More palatable to its perception, I can comprehend what’s beneath me, but I can’t comprehend what’s above. It would be a ‘Russian doll of Gods’, none particularly aware that they are one. There is a creator, in a sense, but is it an absolute? This would be the real question. It is egotism to believe we are the only blind brains hallucinating realities. God’s interoception would be its vena cava, the only vulnerability in an endless distraction. God, are you avoiding looking inward?